And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
A Gift in the Stairwell
A gift was given to me years ago. Although, at the time I didn’t realize it was a gift. At that time in my life, I went on yet another diet thinking that my life would be so much better if I lost weight. I expected better performance at work, more smiles, a happier relationship with my boyfriend and more.
That summer I had gotten quite thin. I had been on a restrictive diet with supplements that convinced me that I would still be getting nutrition even thought I was hardly eating any thing. I had been partying at the bar and I came home to discover I had locked myself out of my apartment. This was before the cell phone days so I couldn’t call for help because my phone was inside the apartment. I remember sitting in the stairwell feeling alone, overwhelmed and I was crying. I remember thinking, “I’m thin and I’m miserable.” At that point I realized that being thin didn’t promise me a better life.
As I have reflected on that moment over the years I have realized that this incident was truly a gift. It didn’t stop me from dieting, but that moment’s truth got rid of one diet promise for me, a promise that many people use to this day. Things don’t necessarily get better just because of weight loss.
Although one incident doesn’t necessarily mean a life change, that day it did cause a flicker of awareness for me that has stuck with me over the years. Losing that misconception early in my 20’s was truly a gift.
Again, I was looking to fix things my way, only today I am reminded of His way. I needed to look for joy in Him, not in my body size.